Monday, April 16, 2012

Emotions

Had a private emotional weekend! Landon was very cranky and just acting out of his norm, super fussy, super pissy and wanted to throw everything he got his hands on, needless to say I was insanely happy for him to take an hour and half long nap. I surprised myself and kept extremely calm (those who know me well know this was a challenge ha) and didn’t flip out on him. *applause applause*


I got SOME housework done; the back pain doesn’t allow me to stand for very long doing chores. I truly do not like this at all and would love to wash the dishes and it only take 20 mins vs and hour! Did some homework (I am insane to be in school), watched season finale of Psych again (oh my word Season 7 come on!) and rearranged our kitchen cabinets (still can’t remember when I open a door).

After his nap he was full force angry boy again – I was really praying he would be calmer after a nap! Aunt Jayme came over and we all went to get a double stroller (another reality check that in a few months another little Abbott will be among us!) and then to a furniture store for Jay, where Landon decided he needed to try out EVERY SINGLE COUCH.

He cat napped in the car – whew. But once home he was a little firecracker again. That night after I struggled to get him to bed (we will do this whole BIG BOY BED thing again when Daddy is home to help me ha) I opened up FB and read a friends status about a friend of theirs who lost their 2 year old child that evening.

I shut the computer and burst out crying. How my heart ached and felt shattered for that family. I cannot fathom …

While I was calm with all his craziness this weekend I still found myself getting so upset with him for acting out and WHY couldn’t he just calm down! I cried even harder thinking how quiet my house would be if he wasn’t around to do those crazy things!! I do get flustered, I do get upset, I do tell him to BE QUIET AND SIT DOWN, I do want to drink 15 glasses of sangria sometimes and I do love him with all my heart. I’ve heard and read blogs where mom’s totally and shamefully criticizes other mother’s for telling their kids to be quiet or cannot believe they get upset with their child. I’ve also heard and read blogs about precious children with special needs and how their mother’s stress to other mothers who children do not have special needs that they would think differently about how they speak to their child or get upset with their child IF their child couldn’t do those actions that causes a mother to get upset.

While I cannot understand life with a child with special needs or life with a child that doesn’t misbehave --- I CAN HOLD MY CHILD AND SO CAN YOU! I emailed that mother that is a friend of a friend and just told her that although we didn’t know each other I had to tell her how much my heart ached and that I would be praying for her. I can’t even being to imagine waking up tomorrow and Landon not yelling at me for more milk then throwing himself in the floor because I’m not moving fast enough for him!

This is a jumble of what I was feeling and still feel this morning. If I feel the need to tell Landon to be quiet, sit down and don’t move OR get on to him for climbing up and over the couch OR get upset because he just dumped an entire cup of milk on my freshly steamed cleaned carpet … I will not feel bad about this and I will still love him and he will know that love.

Friday, April 13, 2012

Landon is two?!

My goodness - 2 years has flown by pretty fast! I sure miss him being a small baby - but I insanely enjoy him and his humor now! He can make me laugh so hard! He is very random - much like his Daddy - and really cracks himself up over anything. I hope he never changes in that aspect!!!


Birthday Banner for my sweet cheeks!

He LOVED his cupcake!


Ready to dig in!


Telling Donna "CHEESE"
We had a small get together with friends and their families for his birthday this year - 70ish people last year pretty much did me in with birthday parties ever again!!!

Saturday at our church we had an egg hunt - so his BFF Coral joined us along with baby sister Abigail! We had a fun time and of course our lil BFFs were too cute as always!!

Counting his eggs

Coral shared the eggs she found with Landon

YEAAAAAA ... at the Church too!!!
These two are so cute together! They play pretty darn well with each other - they have their moments of not wanting to share - but end up hugging it out :) Coral visited one day and they watched Mickey together ....

Telling Donna "CHEEESE"
I didn't notice when I took it - but they are holding hands! LOVE

Landon's imagination is growing - and it's so evident watching him play with his toys! He's figured out that making the "VROOM VROOM" sound with cars is WAY more fun.

He sings with Mickey and tells them all Hi and calls each character by their names. Loves to play hide and seek - and he will place you where he wants you in the house (that is too funny to me).

When I am driving and take the curves he yells "WHOAAAAAAAAAAAA" - his Daddy agrees.

He likes to wear my heels - Daddy does not agree (nor wanting to carry purses). I think it's hilarious - he loves to wear Daddy's big boots too! Evens out!!

When I am sick (pregnancy wise) he will come up to me and pat either my leg or back and say "K".

He says "Jesus Loves Me" and uses the hand motions. He will do this obviously when we ask him but he will also do it at random times - which makes my heart smile!

He will sometimes bring me my phone and say "Pappa" ... that means we need to call Pappa ASAP! Sometimes we chat with Pappa sometimes we leave him a message!

He LOVES to pile up the pillows on the couch - ask for his milk and kicks back!


Minus the milk :)
BABY UPDATE:Go back to the doctor Wednesday the 18th for checkup - unsure if we will find out sex at this time - if not we will definitely at the May visit. 25 weeks to go!!!

Tuesday, April 3, 2012

I can be crafty

My first banner I made was for my friend Jackie and her fiance (at the time) for their wedding shower! I wanted to do something crafty and being that I don't paint, draw, sew, etc ... I thought BANNER!!

So after that shower I started making others here and there! So far I have created 9 and have 2 in progress
Here they are (sometimes I forget to take pics of my process or before they are hung up :) )


Ben & Jackie's Banner (First one - very easy and plain)



I downloaded a Seuss font for Landon's 1st Birthday Party Banner - I love all the colors


Not a banner :) But a neat balloon wreathe I made for Landon's 1st birthday party too


For my friend Cherry's Daughter's birthday party! Never used the glitter foam paper - super easy


My first vertical banner - I liked - I need to do another. For our friends Wedding Shower


For our friends Amy/Dave's baby shower for Lilli!


For the Petty's baby shower - Abigail
 
Fun with patterned paper for Christmas!!!

For Coral's Minnie Mouse Party


For Aiden's Winnie the Pooh - my first attempt at a DESIGN!

My work in progress - must be done by April6th :) - Landon's Mickey Mouse banner

My 2nd work in Progress - my cousin's daughter's banner -- it will be a sea-animals theme!!


So there ya go :) MY banners!! I hope to do more and MAYBE get a machine help out - but doing each one by hand does make it more special :)